Part One
The Ugly Duckling
âWhat nice little children you do have, mother,â said the old duck with the rag around her leg. âThey are all pretty except that one. He didnât come out so well. Itâs a pity you canât hatch him again.â
And the poor duckling who had been the last one out of his egg, and who looked so ugly, was pecked and pushed about and made fun of by the ducks, and the chickens as well. âHeâs too big,â said they all. The turkey gobbler, who thought himself an emperor because he was born wearing spurs, puffed up like a ship under full sail and bore down upon him, gobbling and gobbling until he was red in the face. The poor duckling did not know where he dared stand or where he dared walk. He was so sad because he was so desperately ugly, and because he was the laughingstock of the whole barnyard.
When morning came, the wild ducks flew up to have a look at the duckling. âWhat sort of creature are you?â they asked, as the duckling turned in all directions, bowing his best to them all. âYou are terribly ugly,â they told him, âbut thatâs nothing to us so long as you donât marry into our family.â
âHans Christian Andersen,
The Ugly Duckling (1843)
The real offense, as she ultimately perceived, was her having a mind of her own at all.
âHenry James,
The Portrait of a Lady
Boston, October 1851
Being invisible did have its advantages. Isadora Dudley Peabody knew no one would notice her, not even if the gleaming ballroom floor decided to open up and swallow her. It wouldnât happen, of course. Disappearing in the middle of a crowded room was bold indeed, and Isadora didnât have a bold bone in her body.
Her mind was a different matter altogether.
She surrendered the urge to disappear, relegating it to the land of impossible thingsâa vast continent in Isadoraâs world. Impossible thingsâ¦a smile that was not forced, a compliment that was not barbed, a dream that was not punctured by the cruel thorn of disappointment.
She pressed herself back in a half-domed alcove window. A sneeze tickled her nose. Whipping out a handkerchief, she stifled it. But still she heard the gossip. The old biddies. Couldnât they find someone else to talk about?
âSheâs the black sheep of the family in more ways than one,â whispered a scandalized voice. âShe is so different from the rest of the Peabodys. So dark and ill-favored, while her brothers and sisters are all fair as mayflowers.â
âEven her fatherâs fortune failed to buy her a husband,â came the reply.
âItâll take more than moneyââ
Isadora let the held-back sneeze erupt. Then, her hiding place betrayed, she left the alcove. The startled speakersâtwo of her motherâs friendsâmade a great show of fluttering their fans and clearing their throats.
Adjusting her spectacles, Isadora pretended she hadnât heard. It shouldnât hurt so much. By now she should be used to the humiliation. But she wasnât, God help her, she wasnât. Particularly not tonight at a party to honor her younger sisterâs engagement. Celebrating Arabellaâs good fortune only served to magnify Isadoraâs disgraceful state.
Her corset itched. A rash had broken out between her breasts where the whalebone busk pressed against her sternum. It took a great deal of self-control to keep her hands demurely folded in front of her as she waited in agony for some reluctant, grimly smiling gentleman to come calling for a dance.
Except that they seldom came. No young man wanted to partner an ungainly, whey-faced spinster who was too shy to carry on a normal conversationâand too bored with banal social chatter to try very hard.
And so she stood against the block-painted wall, garnering no more attention than her motherâs japanned highboy. The sounds of laughter, conversation and clinking glasses added a charming undertone to the music played by the twelve-piece ensemble. Unnoticed, she glanced across the central foyer toward her fatherâs business study.
Escape beckoned.
In the darkened study, perhaps Isadora could compose herself andâheaven preserve herâwedge a hand down into her corset for a much-needed scratch.
She started toward the entranceway of the ballroom and paused beneath the carved federal walnut arch. She was almost there. She had only to slip across the foyer and down the corridor, and no one would be the wiser. No one would miss her.