The Friday Project
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First published by The Friday Project in 2008
Copyright © Nasim Marie Jafry 2008
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Source ISBN: 9781906321055
Ebook Edition © JULY 2010 ISBN: 9780007303199 Version: 2014-09-10
This novel is entirely a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents portrayed in it are either the work of the author’s imagination or, if real, are used fictitiously.
WHEN SHE’S FALLING asleep, she rubs her left foot against her right foot. Stop that, he says, you’re like a giant cricket. He deserves an acrobatic lover, a Nadia Comaneci. When she’s got energy, she goes on top as a special treat.
Dragging legs, concentrating on every step, I feel like I’m wading through water. I take a trolley even though I’m only buying a few things. I don’t want to have to carry a basket. I pick up some tea bags. My arms and face are going numb, my bones are burning. I stop the trolley and pretend to look at the coffee. The lights are too bright, there are too many shiny things to look at, too many jars and bottles. I don’t feel real. I abandon the trolley and go to the checkout, picking up a lime on the way.
The woman in front of me places the NEXT CUSTOMER divider between her dog food and my lime. She has a pink pinched face and limpid blue eyes. You can’t see her eyelashes. A mountain of Pedigree Chum edges towards the scanner.
I focus on the lime and hope my legs will last.
I’m wondering how many dogs the pinched woman has, and if her husband loves her without eyelashes, when a shrill voice punctures my head: the voice of the checkout girl. I haven’t realised it’s my turn.
D’you know how much this is? she says, holding up the lime. She’s typed in a code, and PUMPKIN LARGE has come up on the till display.
It’s not a pumpkin, I say. It’s a lime.
She rings for the store manager, who appears from nowhere, brisk and important. He gives the girl the correct code and disappears again in a camp jangle of keys. The girl rings up the lime and I’m free. I go outside and sit on the wall. I feel spectacularly ill.
I make my way home with no shopping. It’s only a five minute walk. I pass the dead seagull folded on the road. It’s been there for three days. It has blood on it.
I reach the house and the smell of fresh paint hits me as I unlock the front door – we’d painted the bathroom last week, my arms left like rags.
I’ll need to call him.
When he answers the phone, I try to sound independent.
I got ill at the supermarket, I say. Can you please get some groceries on the way home?
What do we need?
Pasta, salad, bread. Basics.
I’ll nip home just now. I need to get out of here for a bit anyway.
Can you get some Parmesan too?
Okay.
I’m sorry, I say.
It’s not your fault, he replies.
That seagull’s still there, d’you think I should call the council?
They’ll be closed, he says, it’s after four.
Someone’s moved it into the gutter, at least it’s not in the middle of the road anymore.
Call them tomorrow, he says.
I just feel sorry for it.