Chapter 1
North of London, 1169
Shoving aside her trencher of uneaten food, Lady Emma of Westleigh studied the knights seated in the great hall with a frank assessment that would have made her late mother cringe.
Her gaze roaming over the collection of shoulders and arms, strong torsos and surcoats of assorted cleanliness, Emma pondered the thirty assembled warriors with an interest surely unbecoming to a maid. But as she lacked an honorable guardian to help her choose an appropriate male, she could not be too hard on herself.
The meal was drawing to a close at her cousinâs keep, Edenrock, where she had been a guest since her odious relation had been made her overlord after her fatherâs death.
âWhat about yonder knight with half his trencher stuck in his beard?â her maid, Rowena, asked. Familiar with Emmaâs secret quest for this eve, Rowena pointed toward an oafish figure well past his prime whose ruddy complexion attested to his drunkenness. He gnawed the end of a thick bone with less grace than one of Edwardâs smelly hounds.
Emma hid a shiver of repulsion, knowing full well Rowena only wished to discourage her from her furtive task. The moment Edward du Bois had become her guardian, heâd made it clear he would marry her off as quickly as possible to whichever of his knavish acquaintances would overlook her lack of dowry. Then, two days later, heâd announced the match of his choice and set a wedding date for a fortnight hence. Sheâd been promised to a fearsome tyrant whose last wife had flung herself from his battlements the morning after their bridal night.
Rather than suffer whatever torments that woeful maid had endured, Emma planned to thwart her nuptials by ridding herself of the sole commodity her proposed groom claimed to prize in her.
Her virginity.
âI believe that one is a bit too heavy for a maidâs first time,â Emma asserted calmly, knowing full well Rowena hoped to discourage her from her goal by identifying the most unappealing choices from the knights present. Fortunately, her future husband was not in attendance. âPerhaps someone who weighs less than a horse?â
Rowena glared at her as the din in the hall grew. The wine flowed freely tonight because Edward hoped to solidify his dubious claim to Edenrock among the local nobles. Edward had usurped the keep from the absentee lordâHugh de Montagneâa cousin Emma and Edward shared. Hugh had left the keep two moons ago and not returned. To effectively steal the lands, Edward had started rumors all over the countryside insinuating the rightful owner of Edenrock had committed crimes against his neighborsâatrocities he himself had perpetrated.
Now, he fed his new friends like visiting royalty, providing so much roasted meat that Emma feared the forests would need replenishing. Incense burned in a far-off censer in an attempt to cover the smells of too many men in one hall. The dogs paced the edges of the meal, eager for leftover bones.
âAny man who is not your husband is not right for your first time.â Rowena lowered her voice in deference to their subject even though they were seated at the end of a trestle table far from the dais. The closest guest in the great hall sat two armsâ lengths away.
A year older than Emma, Rowena had been born to a wealthy family that perished in a plague, leaving naught but a bankrupt estate and debts King Henry would not forgive.
âYou would prefer I meekly concede to wed a man who is said to have made his whole village a private harem?â Emma had overheard this in jest after a particularly bloody hunting party a sennight prior.
âI prefer you think carefully about what might happen if you go continue with this plan.â Rowena tugged at her sleeve, bending her head close as two knights nearby started to brawl. âInstead of being sent to a convent as you hope, you could be beaten mercilessly by Edward. Worse, you could be beaten by Edward and given to an even bigger brute who could show his rage on your wedding night.â
The brawling men were separated by a third. The one held his eye and cried foul while the other toasted his victory with his friends.
âNay.â She could not envision such a future for herself. Her parents had taught her letters. She had been encouraged to use her wits. How could she allow herself to become target practice for a vicious manâs fists? âEdward is too proud to risk the humiliation that would bring on him. He is deceitful enough, but his conceit would not allow him to give away a ruined woman as a virgin. To do so would speak poorly of his ability to defend people under his banner.â
She felt certain of it. But that didnât mean he wouldnât hurt her himself. She had yet to plot her way to a convent if and when she managed to secure her own deflowering.
âWhat of the hasty-witted lout you choose to perform such a risky task as tupping another manâs betrothed?â Rowenaâs gaze slid around the hall, pausing on no one in particular but grazing each man briefly. âWhat is to stop him from claiming you for a bride himself? Then you are no closer to the convent and you might be tying yourself to an even worse fate than before.â Emma could not deny the hint of fear that tripped down her spine in response. âI will ensure I commit the deed with a man who would never wish to wed me.â The list of risks grew the more she considered the strategy.