***
It’s like I was made
For all of you to speak.
A little misunderstood.
Slightly overshadowed by your pressure.
But do not call to leave life with me.
In my eyes you see only peace.
A patchwork to cover the way
And forget…
And I will walk on it.
In my dreams and thoughts all.
I’m in this world for myself.
***
Midnight light
My thoughts will leave my delirium.
I’ll remember our glances,
I’ll take the keys, the outfits.
I’ll decorate my head with a flower
I’ll cover my world with the ceiling.
I’ll let the wind carry me away
To give answers to the light.
I’ll hide in a dark book
And let them scream about what they can’t see.
When you’re done flipping through the pages.
You’ll understand me now
For I am alive…
***
With chapped lips,
With salty cheeks.
I’ll finish it all illegally.
There’s no truth in other people’s answers
There’s no truth.
The cold light
Envelopes the body
And sharp outlines.
«To you, hello,
As in a moment of farewell.
Close your eyes
And be silent
Your train
Waiting for you on your journey…
***
In moments of smiles she called,
And then sat sadly alone.
Waiting for a cab, counting the minutes.
I put out one by one, reliving the morning.
I was so nostalgic with the lights…
I’ve been waiting for a taxi, I’ve been counting the minutes.
I used to run and believe in miracles.
Now closing in,
I don’t seem to be alive.
Only in my own world
In peace I was,
But I let myself die.
Drops of life of despair fall,
I’ll be filled with pain
And say goodbye.
***
Whatever the pain is,
I will go through it myself.
Life’s answers.
Alone with myself I’ll scream and sob
But I won’t show it in the morning
I’ll keep a box of wounds
A box of wounds
With a fuzzy smile I’ll open all the doors,
And at night I’ll scream wildly in my bed
I’ll walk on the roof of life
And I’ll only dream of keeping myself safe
So that I don’t lose all meaning
To pick it up at the drop of a hat
I will walk in the rain again,
But this happiness is limitless.
Don’t walk away from the days of life
I have only you.
***
And that’s what we all went through all this for?
The minutes were senselessly lost
And days, hours, forgotten as if…
***
To walk and not to dissolve.
To breathe and not be forgotten.
To lose my thoughts.
With a new pain in bed.
Scraps, scraps!
Sticks poked at us.
How quickly to leave
Not to call for a ghost.
Wrapped in wires
And cry again…
There’s two of us left
Who will we meet?
Distance is meaningless.
There’s no point in being bored
***
There is no advice without a reason.
A hundred girlfriends swirled that summer.
Only you lost yourself.
No question, who am I now?!
Once again the details of life are hidden,
Everyone cried, «You’re different!
Pouring down your hot throat
The remnants of what you remember when you’re alive.
In the bulkhead, as in a play.
Braided by dreams fluttering.
sharpened all the things you loved
Only my heart has already forgotten.
***
We can’t hear each other,
We have forgotten that we are breathing.
And through the open windows
I wanted to leave.
I am broken myself,
And it won’t be brave.
I walk as if blind through life.
Under the lonely moon,
I’m always with her suffering.
By the salt water
I will open the dawns.
By the seals of the forgotten
I will only hear the advice
To leave this world
As if forgetting everything
I’ll tell the emptiness!
I miss the old me…
***
Waiting, waiting
I’ve been sketching
My answer
It’s the answer of an asshole.
The vase is broken
There’s water running down the glass
Like salted blood
All the things I didn’t burn
I’ve never experienced
The tenderness of fire
No more wind
The earth is full.
***
I told you!
That’s how I was greeted.
With two words.
Oh, Mama, what’s wrong with us now?!
Oh pain, oh heart,
The sorrow, the stones.
How can you scream
When your hand is on the bathtub
And how to hurry
When you feel
You’re already in the dark
You were talking
But not about me
***
She’s talking about love again,
You’ve forgotten your loneliness.
Aren’t you tired of saying goodbye to him?
Who are you lying to?
You were just giving yourself away.
And now,
Take your misery
I see you every day
But my thoughts
Are just a punishment
You’ll be glad
To see what you’ve kept
But he won’t remember.
Sweetheart.
You’ll be alone again.
***
And he looked on indifferently,
I only wanted to know the truth.
The powder fire is burning again,
It’s like we’re alone
And I’m the only one who sees you
And I see you off and I miss you.
And you’ve forgotten
When you loved me
I accept what I know.
But I forget everything else.
It’s time to take a step
To the winds
When you hurt me
I’ll notice.
***
I sprinkle salt on my wounds,
And I’m in tears
And I suffer
And I’m willing to kill myself.
Now I see it!
It’s all in vain
The heart will forget.
I forgive.
I’ll feel better
I let go.
***
I never took offended
Did you?
Yes!
And rose again!
And fall to pieces.
And forgave!
And I called!
I was amazed
It pains me to see
There’s another life here
And I don’t know
The word grief.
But I’ve experienced
All I can
I’ll finish myself
You make me feel like I’m alone.
***
In the fervor of the wind,
Of unbridled days
We have forgotten
Who in the world of men
