He slid his hands to her elbows, stopping her. âIâm not treating our first time together like weâre teenagers looking for a fast thrill in a game room. Weâre not only too old for that, we deserve better.â
Dusting her hands as if she was done, she hurried away. âFine. This is all I have, Bryce. All I can do.â
He touched her shoulder and she stopped. Did she want him to change her mind? Show her how much he cared about her? âIf it were me ⦠If our positions were reversed, and I was the one with scars, what would you do right now, Kylie? Would you let me run away? Continue to be afraid?â She covered her face. âI am afraid.â
He could barely hear her. He asked just as quietly, âOf me?â
âStrangely enough, no. But yes, maybe of you most of all.â
Prologue
Austin, Texas, five years ago
Sissy Jorgenson-Tenoreno attempted a smile at her friends to make the empty parking lot less spooky. It didnât work. âThis is an odd place to meet, even for Xander.â
The food truckâs inside lights were glowing. So were the Christmas lights strung around the single picnic table out front. Daddy Cadeâs PoâBoys didnât seem to be one of the more popular gourmet trucks in town. Good thing sheâd brought her entourage of Darren, Janna and Linda with her.
Xander should think twice if he thought sheâd meet him anywhere alone.
âYour soon-to-be ex-husband probably chose this place because he knew youâd never eat here,â Darren said. âYou make every calorie count twice. Especially now that you need your figure back.â
She was still the same size as when theyâd eloped eight months ago. In fact, the outfit she was wearing had been bought on their unofficial honeymoon trip to Paris.
âSissy Jorgenson shouldnât be forced to come to a place like this,â Janna complained. âYou should send the police for your things. Even the cat.â
Xanderâs father owns the police.
Did it really bother her that they talked as if they understood the life sheâd led before getting married? Teen model, then married to the mob? They had no clue. Not really. A different location every week was glamorous to them. A different hotel each week was appealing. A life of travel and what appeared to be one party after another.
Even the parties got old. The same faces night after night. There werenât any sleepy movie days in front of the television. No study binges, no spontaneous orders of pizza and beer. No darting to the store for milk and bread, which were never on the menu anyway.
One day someone might ask what had been going through her mind when she got married. Her friends shrugged the divorce off as if it was no big deal. What had she expected? Happily ever after? Looking back, she hadnât really expected anything. She might not have known what marriage would be like, but she knew what she wanted.
The answer was so simple. Sheâd wanted a home. A place to belong, a family and a pet. Sheâd never had one and always wanted to save the strays she saw while traveling. Instead, being married was equivalent to being locked inside a mansion surrounded by people who had no love in their hearts.
âI need a bottle of water or maybe this place sells Gel Shots. Five or six of those and weâll be ready to party again.â Linda staggered across the gravel parking lot to the food truck and banged on the window. When no one answered, she swayed back to the group. âIâm so envious. In three days youâll be jet-setting halfway across the world for a fabulous Roman adventure. I, on the other hand, will be starting another boring semester of school.â
While starving herself to drop down to her agentâs ideal weight, sheâd be wishing every minute for her friendâs boring life.
âAnybody want a fried oyster poâboy? Of course Sissyâs answer is no. She canât waste calories on stinky food. The bun alone would beââ