âI love this dress,â Jason murmured.
âIâd love it even better if it was lying on the grass. I canât go another day, another night without you, Liv. Let me love you, as I want to. Donât be sad and bitter. Iâve been punished.â
Olivia was very near tears. âWhat are you saying, Jason? You want us to start over?â
âYes!â His tone was urgent, heartfelt. âHavenât we both suffered enough? I want you back, Liv.â
Margaret Way takes great pleasure in her work and works hard at her pleasure. She enjoys tearing off to the beach with her family at weekends, loves haunting galleries and auctions and is completely given over to French champagne âfor every possible joyous occasion.â She was born and educated in the river city of Brisbane, Australia, and now lives within sight and sound of beautiful Moreton Bay.
ON THAT hot November afternoon before school broke up for the Christmas vacation Olivia returned to her trendy inner-city apartment to find the red light flashing on her answering machine. She pushed the button leaning casually against the kitchen counter to listen to her messages. While she was waiting she kicked off her shoes, contemplating a swim in the apartment complexâs pool to relax and wind-down. She gave her attention to the mail, sorting through it quickly. She was so looking forward to the long summer break. In many ways it had been an exhausting year. Adolescent girls werenât the easiest people in the world to deal with. especially the ones who had embarked on sex lives.
There was a postcard from a friend who was always dashing off to exotic parts of the worldâthis time Peru, hence the picture of the ruins of Machu Picchu; a stack of invitations to Christmas functions and parties, the phone billâaccompanied by a booklet of helpful hints; a letter from a favoured charity that specialized in looking after families in need thanking her for her generous Christmas donation. She was pleased to help in fact she felt duty bound. Her career as a secondary school teacher was flourishing. She had slipped into prestigious Ormiston Girls Grammar three years earlier as though the job had been tailor made for her. She was well paid and she had private means. Why shouldnât she give something back to the community? Sheâd sent off cheques to other charities as well.
The first recorded message was from Matt Edwards who she had been seeing quite a bit. Matt wanted to know if sheâd fancy a romantic weekend at the glorious beach resort of Noosa on the Sunshine Coast. Sheâd have to think about that one. She enjoyed Mattâs company. He was an interesting man, but alas not rivetting. Rivetting men were few and far between which was just as well for the protection of womenâsuch men became dangerous in the blink of an eye. Olivia thought it better to settle for quiet, everlasting devotion.
Matt was attractive with a dry sense of humour that appealed to her. He was getting to make quite a name for himself as a corporate lawyer. Heâd just bought himself an expensive new car which miracle of miracles heâd allowed her to take for a short drive around the block. One would have to look really hard to find a man who appreciated a womanâs driving skills let alone her intelligence, but then Matt was devoting a lot of his energies to winning Olivia over with a view to getting her to the altar. The sad part was, he wasnât succeeding. She already knew she would never love him.
She knew all about loveâthe sort of love that enraptured or ruined. It was Heaven or Hell and there seemed to be no in-between. Attraction was too tame after that. Any day now she would have to tell Matt he was wasting precious time. She just couldnât commit. Maybe it all stemmed from the fact that once sheâd almost been married. Sometimes when she was tired or depressed and slipped unwillingly into memory she thought she might always be on her own. Sheâd taken scissors to her wedding dress and veil and a week later sheâd cut off her long mane. No man would slide his fingers through her hair again.
âLiv, you push the guys away!â That was her friend, Julie talking. Julie tended to nag her. The thing was it wasnât easy to forget what love was likeâeven when love was done.
The second message was from the mother of a really problematic kid in her Maths class whoâd made flouncing out of lessons an art form. Olivia hadnât been prepared to tolerate that. A grateful mother thanked her for achieving âwonderful results with Charlotteâ the third from a recently married colleague inviting her and Matt over to a dinner partyââIâm getting in early, kiddo! Youâre amazingly popular.â
The last message profoundly shocked her. The letter opener fell out of her nerveless hand, clattering onto the tiles. Olivia moved with urgency nearer the machine, her heart lurching in anticipation of the bad news she knew instinctively was to come.