Ruby
As a former evacuee, feisty Ruby is forced to fend for herself when she returns to her family in London.Set in the aftermath of WW2, this gripping saga is richly evocative of the period and shows the true grit of our heroine Ruby.After having lived peacefully in Cambridgeshire as an evacuee, 15-year-old Ruby Blakeley is bought back to reality when her brutish brother Ray comes to take her to the East London suburb of Walthamstow.Far from being welcomed back with open arms, she finds herself being treated as a drudge by her widowed mother and subject to a tirade of taunts from her two brothers.Things get worse when she becomes pregnant. Deciding her baby is better off without her, she runs away from home and gives her child away. Bereft, Ruby makes a new start for herself in Southend, but finds she can’t escape her past.
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RUBY
Marie Maxwell
This is for Riley, my gorgeous grandson. His first dedication! xxx
I’d also like to pay a special tribute to the fabulous author and friend Penny Jordan/Annie Groves who died on New Year’s Eve 2011. RIP Penny, you’ll be sadly missed.
Table of Contents
Prologue
Southend Hospital, 1952
‘Someone give me something … I’m in such pain … I can’t breathe,’ the woman on the trolley groaned. Her head rolled back and forth and she clutched fiercely at her chest. ‘I can’t breathe, help me …’ As she spoke, all her strength seemed to float way from her body and she could feel herself being pulled towards unconsciousness. She tried to turn onto her side to curl up into a comforting ball but hands reached out to stop her and hold her flat on her back.
Her mind confused by the ever-increasing waves of pain, she was losing track of where she was. All she knew was that she was suffering the worst pain she had ever felt in her life. She felt as if her lungs were on fire. She could hear voices all around her but she was finding it hard to focus. An atmosphere of urgency pervaded, but the words she could hear made no sense.
She kept drifting between pain and oblivion: floating away peacefully to another place and then being pulled back with the fierceness of the pain.
Then the voices became louder and more urgent, and she felt herself being moved quickly. Bright lights flashed overhead, wheels rattled loudly underneath her and doors slammed behind her. Almost as soon as the journey had started, so it stopped, and people she didn’t recognise grouped around her, touching her, pulling at her clothes. Then there was a pain in her hand, a mask over her face, and she was drifting away again. She just had time to wonder if she was dying, if that was it for her life – if that was all it had been about – before oblivion took her over and she succumbed to the anaesthetic.
‘Time to wake up now,’ a disembodied voice said. ‘Your operation is over and we need to see you awake.’
She tried to shake herself awake but it was hard.
‘Don’t move. You’ve got dressings on your chest and your arm is in plaster. Just open your eyes so we know you’re out of the anaesthetic and then you can go back to sleep.’
She forced her eyes open and focused on the nurse standing beside the bed.
‘What happened?’ The words came out slowly past her swollen tongue.
‘You’ve had surgery. The doctor will talk to you about it later once you’re transferred from post-op.’
As she watched the ramrod-straight back of the nurse walking away, the memory of some of it started to come back to her. It was all disjointed in her head: the sudden crippling pain in her ribs that made breathing agony; the feeling that her chest had exploded; tumbling down the stairs and cracking her head; crawling along the hall to the open front door and then out onto the path looking for help. And then she remembered the fear …
‘What happened to me?’ she whispered, her chest hurting with every breath. ‘Nurse? Nurse … ?’
By then the nurse was tending to a patient across the other side of the post-operative ward. She looked over her shoulder. ‘Sshh, you’re in recovery,’ she said in a loud whisper. ‘Don’t disturb the other patients now. Go back to sleep and doctor will talk to you soon.’
‘Why am I here?’
‘You’ve had an operation. Stop shouting.’
‘Operation for what?’ Her voice was hoarse and her tongue felt as if it was filling her mouth so that she struggled to get the words out.
‘I told you, sshh. I really can’t tell you anything. Doctor has to talk to you and he will, later. He’s talking to your fiancé at the moment.’
‘To who?’ She tried to clear her head. There was an image she was trying to catch hold of but it wouldn’t stop long enough for her to focus on it.
‘I’m sorry but there are seriously ill patients over here I have to look after, so stop the talking and rest,’ the nurse snapped impatiently in a tone that proved tolerance obviously wasn’t her forte in the middle of a busy night shift.
She closed her eyes in despair and let her head fall back onto the skinny pillow that had been placed under her head, but even that hurt. She reached up and touched her face, then had another flash of recall. She struggled to sit up.
‘Someone tell me what’s happened. I can’t remember …’
‘Stop this, you’re disturbing everyone.’
Instead of the recall of events she was searching for, a wave of terror engulfed her and she started screaming, louder than she had ever screamed in her life, and the pain in her chest erupted.
