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First published in Great Britain by HarperVoyager 2018
Copyright © Laura Liddell Nolen 2018
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Source ISBN: 9780008181482
Ebook Edition © December 2017 ISBN: 9780008113643
Version: 2017-12-11
The first time I tried to kill Adam, I tasted sugar.
We werenât alone. We never were. A tightly-wound shadow flinched behind my left shoulder every time I moved my arm, threatening to make itself fully known, but I couldnât give it a name, so I ignored it, even though it made my ribs shake and my fingers cold.
Adam rolled a chair from behind the desk, remaining seated, and I could only stare. Clean brown hair, like heâd combed it twice. Dark eyes on pale skin, like his sister. I blinked. Something was different.
âChew, Char. Maybe next year, Iâll let you blow the candles out.â
I looked down. A mountain of pink icing covered the plate in my lap. A cake stood between us, tall and bright, and missing two slices. The world was obscured behind a thick pane of hazy glass, with only Adam in focus.
So I stared at him instead, trying to figure out where I was, and why.
We were in a control room, I decided, judging by all the shiny panels, and it was someoneâs birthday. My good arm, as I thought of it, held a fork. My wrist on my good arm had light bruises, like Iâd been yanking it against a handcuff.
My bad arm had no bruises. But then, it had no wrist, either, since it ended below the elbow. At least they couldnât cuff it. I frowned. That wasnât much of a silver lining.
I was pretty sure Iâd been here before. I knew, for instance, that this wasnât the first birthday Iâd celebrated with Adam, that the door was behind me, and that I didnât care about anything on the console to my immediate right.
Or maybe Iâd just figured that out a moment ago. I couldnât tell.
The twitchy shadow-person stepped around to see why I wasnât chewing despite having a mouth full of cake, and we squinted at each other as she came briefly into view. She looked to be around thirty, with amber skin and short black hair untouched by streaks of gray. There was a sour tension around her mouth. She didnât like me.
No, no. That wasnât it. I wrenched myself around to inspect her again. She stepped away from my line of sight without catching my eye.
She didnât like Adam, I decided. Me, she didnât think about at all.
âSheâs fine. A little tired, maybe,â she said.
âLetâs wake her up some more,â said Adam.
âToo dangerous, unless you want to cuff her. Remember last time?â
âNo cuff. I want her to eat the cake.â He looked disappointed, but returned his attention to me. âGive me that napkin.â
I will not. I want to throw him out an airlock. Why would Iâ
I extended the napkin toward him, and he snatched it with an appraising glance. âNot feeling too feisty today, huh? I can live with that,â he said. âLong as you behave. Have some more.â
I had an overwhelming urge to stab him. It was related to the story he was telling, but I knew I wasnât supposed to think about that.