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Prologue
HMP Bronzefield
I arrived to shouting and screaming. Prison officers were sprinting across the corridor and up the metal stairs.
‘What’s happening?’ I shouted, thinking a fight must have broken out.
I’ve seen and heard a lot during my fifteen years as a prison doctor, but the reply shocked me.
‘Someone’s having a baby!’ one of the officers yelled, repeating the news into his radio. He called for back-up, an ambulance, nurses, for all medical staff to come to House Block One.
‘Oh bloody hell!’
I followed the stampede. We sounded like a small army trampling up the metal stairs.
The deep stench of overcooked vegetables from lunch lingered in the air, green and ripe, sweet and rotten, mixed with sweat and cheap soap.
The prisoners heard us coming, thumping their fists on their cell doors. Metal thunder, filling the air.
Half a dozen officers were already crowded outside the entrance to the tiny cell at the end.
‘Coming through!’ I said, squeezing past them.
A shaft of light poured through the small barred window. Hiding in the shadows of the corner was a tiny young woman, standing and shaking. Her nightie was soaked in blood from the waist down. The walls were splattered too; violent red sprays, like protest graffiti.
She looked completely shell-shocked. In that moment, she didn’t know where or who she was. Her wiry black hair was drenched in sweat and glued across her face.
But where was the baby?
I tried to appear calm, stepping closer, trying to reassure her.
‘Hi, sweetheart, you’re going to be okay.’
Who knew if that were true? I suspected the prisoner was a heroin addict currently on methadone. The majority of prisoners on House Block One had a history of substance misuse.
The banging of the doors grew louder. Shouting and swearing, the air full of heat and sound and pressure. When the prison was like that it felt as if a spark could blow the place sky high.
The woman started screaming.
‘Get it out of me! Get it out of me!’
She must have meant her placenta because there, partially hidden by the bed, lying in a pool of blood on the cold prison floor, was a tiny baby girl.
I looked around, trying to see something I could use to wrap her up. The umbilical cord was torn, presumably ripped apart by her mother. The baby was so small I suspected she was a good few weeks premature. But was she alive? Was this poor, poor girl ali—
To my overwhelming relief she started to cry.
‘Has anyone got any clean towels?’ I asked.
‘Here you go, Doc.’ Becky, the prison officer, handed me the only clean thing she had to hand – a blue bed sheet.
I scooped her up into my arms, wrapped the prison sheets around her and held her close, desperately trying to warm up her fragile body. What a way to come into the world. She nestled into my chest and her crying settled a little.