As a history enthusiast (to say the least; my less-nice friends call me a history geek!) Iâve long been fascinated by the complex and tragic life of Mary Queen of Scots, and I was so happy to have the chance to use her as a secondary character in Unlacing the Lady in Waiting. I knew quite a bit about her later life in English captivity, but not much about her early days back in Scotland after years in France. I also loved getting to use Scotland as a setting for the first time (but not the last! Look for a full-length novel in the near future, where we glimpse Helen and James as a married coupleâ¦).
If youâd like to read more about the period, here are a few sources I enjoyed:
âJohn Guy, The True Life of Mary Stewart, Queen of Scotland (2004)
âRoderick Graham, Mary Queen of Scots: An Accidental Tragedy (2009)
âAntonia Fraser, Mary Queen of Scots (1969)
âJS Richardson, The Abbey and Palace of Holyroodhouse (1978) (plus the guidebook to Holyrood now available at the palace, the photos were invaluable!)
Scotland, 1559
âLady Helen! Where are you? You know we can find youâ¦â
Lady Helen Frasier ran faster along the garden path, one hand holding up the hem of her new white brocade gown. She clapped her hand hard over her mouth to keep from laughing aloud. Despite her dismal mood that day, it gave her great pleasure to evade her attendants. They wouldnât find herâshe would make sure of that.
She ducked into the narrow entrance of the maze, and the high, prickly green walls of the hedges closed in around her. She couldnât hear the calls of her maids any longer, or the noise from the house as her fatherâs servants prepared for the banquet. She couldnât even hear the faint rush of the sea just beyond the estateâs high walls.
She could only hear the sound of her own breath as she gasped for air in her stiff, embroidered bodice, and the crunch of her shoes on the gravel pathway. The pale gray sky arched over her head, full of shifting clouds that promised rain later, rain that would surely ruin her fatherâs plans for torch-lit dancing in the garden.
Helen didnât care if the whole cursed party was ruined, if the house fell down and the garden drowned. She never wanted tonight to come. She never wanted to leave this maze at all.
Stopping to catch her breath, she pressed her hand to the stiff bodice over her abdomen, feeling the pearl beadwork press into her palm. The wind felt colder now, and bit through her thin gold tissue sleeves and over her bare shoulders. This was the finest gown she had ever worn, and usually she would revel in the fine fabric and stylish cut. It had come all the way from France, as had the garden designer and the cook who labored now in the kitchens to prepare the sumptuous banquet.
She hated the new gown today. She wanted to rip it off.
But she just took in another breath, as deep as she could, and shook back the heavy length of loose auburn hair from her shoulders. She was alone now; they couldnât find her. This maze was her own world, where she wasnât forced to say or do anything she didnât want.
In her dreamworld, she didnât have to marry any blasted McKerrigan.
Helen leaned her palms on her knees, bending over to let the sudden sick feeling pass. The brocade skirt slid against her palms. She closed her eyes tightly, but the memory of what happened a few days ago wouldnât be dismissed.
She heard her fatherâs stern voice again as he told her she would marry the son of their old family enemies the McKerrigans, felt again the cold panic that washed over her, drowning her. She saw his bearded face turn scarlet at her protests.
âNone of us want this match, girl!â he had shouted as she burst into tears. âFor a Frasier to wed a McKerriganâitâs an abomination. But if weâre to survive it must be done. So cease your wailing!â
And she felt again his slap across her face, knocking her to the side.
All her life she had been told the McKerrigans were wicked barbarians, nothing but cattle thieves and murderers, the enemies of the Lowland Frasiers for decades. And now, for reasons she could not fathom, she was to marry one.
All her girlish dreams of dances and masques, of romance and splendor, were dying in the face of a bleak future with a crude McKerrigan. She had spent all her life at the mercy of her fatherâs cold will, feeling alone in his house, alone in the world. Now she would be alone in the home of a McKerrigan. When would she ever be herself? When would she ever have her own life?