A note from the author:
Never To Sleep is a novella, not a full-length novel, and it takes place within the If I Die time frame, so please be aware before you read this story that it does contain an If I Die spoiler.
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âI know sheâs your best friend and all, Sophie, but Laura Bell has got to go,â Peyton whispered, shoving both gym doors open at once so she could walk through the center of the double doorway for a grand exit. Every entrance Peyton made was a production, and every exit was a statement. This exit said, Get used to the back of my head, bitches, because thatâs all youâre gonna see when I lead us to the state dance team championship next year.
What Peyton didnât understand was that she wasnât going to be leading us.
I was.
In the entire history of the Eastlake High dance team, an incoming junior had never been voted captain. I was going to be the first. But I needed Lauraâs support to make that happen. People fear Peytonâs mouth. They respect my talent. And they like Laura. It was going to take at least two of the threeâfear, respect, and congenialityâto claim the prize.
If Peyton got Laura kicked off the team, I was screwed.
âSheâs a good dancer, Pey.â
âYeah. In private. Sometimes in practice. But every time we get ready to compete, she flakes out. With all that nervous vomiting, youâd think sheâd be skinnier.â The doors closed behind us, and Peyton stopped whispering. âAnd now another injury.â That morning, weâd been twenty minutes into the second-to-last practice before the final competition of the year when Laura twisted her ankle. Again. âIf she canât bring it when it counts, why is she here? Someone should show her the door.â
I knew what was coming. It was Peytonâs MOâdelegate the dirty work.
âIt has to come from her best friend, Sophie,â Peyton said, as we rounded the corner into the science hall, where Mrs. Foley had sent us to get the new dance uniforms sheâd left in her classroom. âThatâs the only humane way to do this.â
âThatâs up to Mrs. Foley. I couldnât kick Laura off the team even if I wanted to.â
âNo oneâs talking about kicking her off,â Peyton said, and immediately I realized my mistake. Iâd been the first to say it out loud, and thatâs the only part of this conversation that would make it back to Laura. âIâm talking about counseling herâas her friendâto do whatâs best for herself and for the team. I mean, isnât that whatâs really important here? The team?â
âSo, were you thinking about the good of the team when you hooked up with Beth Larsonâs boyfriend, at her own birthday party?â I asked, brushing past her to pull open Mrs. Foleyâs classroom door. Beth was our current captain, an outgoing senior, and Peyton was determined to replace her in every way possible.
She followed me in and pushed the door shut before answering. âNo, I was thinking of the good of the team when I threatened to tell the whole school heâs hung like a gerbil if he ever says anything.â She stomped across the classroom between two rows of desks, without even glancing at all the weird biology stuff. Three-dimensional model of the human heart. A row of microscopes lined up next to the utility sink. A dead frog preserved in a jar of something discolored and gross.
There was even a plastic skeleton hanging from a stand behind Mrs. Foleyâs desk. It used to be next to the door, wearing one of the dance teamâs sequined headbands, until one of the varsity basketballersâLauraâs exâhad been caught molesting it when Mrs. Foley came in from the hall. Laura called him a degenerate. Peyton pointed out that if Laura was as thin as the skeleton, he wouldnât have dumped her to hump a plastic teaching tool in front of the whole class.
âWe have to be together on this, Sophie,â Peyton said, as I followed her around Mrs. Foleyâs desk, where she squatted to open a big cardboard box that had already been unsealed. âIâm constantly sticking up for you, when people start talking about your whack-job cousin. I tell them her issues arenât hereditary, and thereâs, like, virtually no chance youâre gonna flip out on us in the middle of a performance.â Peyton pulled out a plastic-wrapped dance skirt and examined it while I tried not to break my new porcelain veneers from grinding my teeth.