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Source ISBN: 9780008115081
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Version: 2017-06-24
For every girl whoâs been told sheâs too sensitive.
For every woman whoâs taught herself not to be.
Life is a dream. âTis waking that kills us.
âVirginia Woolf, Orlando
This is a work of fiction. The things that you read here did not happen. At least, not yet.
I STAND IN THE DARK, barefoot and cold on the edge of the sharp rocks, staring out over the long stretch of black water in front of me. And I wonder if I really can make it all the way to that small light on the dock in the distance. It seems so impossibly far away, the water so frighteningly still like itâs just waiting for someone fool enough to try.
I am not a very strong swimmer, or not nearly strong enough. Iâve never made it that kind of distance. Not fully clothed, not in the darkness. Across unfamiliar water, with all the tricks a pinprick of light on the horizon can play, who knows what could go wrong? But we have no choice. They are coming for us. For me, actually. They are already here. Voices in the distance, creeping closer. Itâs only a matter of time.
But the real crazy thing? These bad facts notwithstanding, deep down I do believe I can swim the mile or more to that dock. I know it, actually. Maybe thatâs all that matters. Because if I have learned anything in these past weeks, itâs that strength is just another word for faith. And true courage lies in holding out hope.
And right now, itâs just me and my doubt at the waterâs edge anyway. I know not to let that get the better of me. Instead, I need to trust my instincts.
So I take one last deep breath before I step forward and set my gaze on that faraway horizon. And then I start to swim.
I AM IN OUR FOYER staring at the text from Jasper. At that one word: Run.
For a minute. For an hour. Forever.
My heart drums against my rib cage as my eyes stay down. The six agents say things. Their namesâAgent Klute and Agent Johansen and Agent something else and something else. Run. Donât run. Run. Donât run. They say other things: Department of Homeland Security. Ruling out a domestic security threat. The rest is just buzzing.
Run. Donât run. Run. Donât run.
Run.
I spin toward the steps, phone gripped like a hand grenade. Run first. Questions later. Quentin taught me that.
âWylie?â my dad shouts after me. Stunned. Confused. Worried. âWylie, what are youââ
Voices, jostling behind me as I pound toward the steps. Donât look back. Donât slow down. On and up the stairs. On and up. Thatâs what I need to do.
But why up? Shouldnât I run out the back door and not deeper into the house? The upstairs bathroom and the slanted, notched part of the roof. That must be it. A way out. I grab the banister when my feet slip.
âMs. Lang!â one of them calls. So close I can almost feel his breath.
âStop! Leave her alone!â My dad sounds so angry I barely recognize his voice. Many more voices shout back at him. Gasping, thudding, a struggle. âYou canât just barge into our house!â
âDr. Lang, calm down!â
âHey! Stop!â The voice behind me again. Even closer now. I lunge forward as I hit the upstairs hall.
The bathroom. Thatâs where I need to go. Focus. Focus. Faster. Faster. Before he grabs me. The door isnât far. And Iâll only need a second to open the window and crawl out. After a quick slide to the ground, Iâll do then what I have done before. Run. Like. Hell.
Down the hallway I pound, loud feet still just a stride behind me. âWylie!â the man calls out, but stiff like he doesnât want to admit that I even have a name.