CHAPTER ONE
âI thought you must be one of the models when I first saw you.â
Natalja Jordan rolled her eyes inwardly at the shameless flattery and surmised that perhaps the hulking great camera around her neck hadnât been as much of a giveaway as she might have expected.
She knew she wasnât completely unattractive with her slimly curvaceous figure and long dark blonde hair, which was currently scraped up into a high bun for practicality. But she came nowhere near the gazelle-like golden goddess who was her model for the day and who was blithely stripping down to skimpy underwear to change behind a clothes rail on the other side of the room.
A fact that Mr Matthias Cavello, manager of the exclusive Chatsfield hotel, seemed to have just picked up on, his dark eyes bugging out on stalks now.
Dryly Nat remarked, âThanks for the vote of confidence but as Iâm only five foot six I hardly qualify for the modeling world.â
The manager dragged his gaze away from the gorgeous Russian model and blinked at Nat. She could have laughed and curbed a wry smile. Sheâd witnessed the effect supermodels had on poor hapless men for at least three years now and it never failed to amuse her.
Mr Cavello, an attractive Italian, cleared his throat. âLike I said, if thereâs anything you need at all, weâll look after you. Itâs an honour to have F magazine shooting here at the hotel.â
Nat smiled but there was something about him that she didnât quite trust. An element of pseudo politeness that made her uneasy. To her relief he seemed to take the hint and left, but not before his dark eyes devoured the model who was now being zipped into a haute couture creation.
Theyâd already done some shots and this was the first of many changes. Knowing that hair and make-up would be touching up Lenkaâs look for a few minutes, Nat took advantage and slipped outside through the open french doors of the huge hotel ballroom to suck in a deep breath of fresh London spring air.
The view over the surrounding gardens was spectacular, the low rumble of traffic muted in this rare quiet city space. This was Natâs favourite time of the year to be in London, when everything was blooming. Fresh. Starting over.
Just as she had herself in the past few years. She sighed and leant against the stone balustrade on the grand terrace. It was during peaceful civilised moments like this that the past rushed back to meet her, reminding her forcibly of the chaos and destruction sheâd left behind. She could almost taste the thrill of adrenalin and danger on her tongue now, tart and strong. Just how her father must have felt. The thought made a familiar ache of grief form in her chest. Yet she knew she didnât miss that danger and chaos.
She was slightly shocked by how close the past felt to her when she was a million miles away from it, and when she was fifteen years on from the death of her father, and her mother. An uncharacteristic sense of vulnerability washed over her and for the first time she felt a keen sense of loneliness.
She thought of the mesmerised, almost dazed look in the managerâs eyes just now when heâd stared at the model. Nat couldnât remember the last time a man had looked at her like that, if ever. She almost couldnât remember the last time a man had transported her with his touch, his mouth.
When he had, it had been a fellow photographer, amidst the tumult of a war-zone when life and death hung in the balance every second. It had heightened the love- making but Nat knew now that under normal circumstances her last lover would have left little or no impression at all. She could hardly recall his face.
Irritated to be thinking like this, she made a disgusted sound and turned to go back into the ballroom when her gaze snagged on a lone figure at the other end of the terrace, over the dividing wall.
It was a man, dressed in dark clothing. Something about his intense stillness caught at her. He was dark, dark enough to stand out against the lush city garden, his short thick black hair making her think bizarrely of military precision. His hands rested on the stone wall, just like hers had been, and he was looking out over the garden broodingly, much as she must have been.
A tug of something made her breath shorten. Crazy. Just because he too was looking out at the garden - to imagine he was thinking of similar things? And even though quite a distance separated them, she was aware that he was big. Well over six feet tall, broad and powerful. Instantly something sizzled to life in her belly. Something she hadnât felt in a long time.